Packing Procrastination

It is now six days until I will be leaving WI to head home and I have been alternating between packing up my room, looking for apartments in NC, and trying to not think about the future. It is a tricky combination that is somewhat tiring.

I took down a picture and could distinctly remember hanging it up all the way back in August. Where does time go? Growing up adults always told me time flies by, college will be gone before you know it, every year goes faster and faster; the older I get, the more I realize this warning to be true. And yet back in December I know that I was wishing for the future, even though I didn't know what it held. Now the future is here, creeping closer every day and part of me wants to hide under the blankets and hope it goes away. Don't get me wrong, I could not be more excited... but woah. Some of you are probably thinking, 'Rachel, you're being nostalgic, that's normal' or maybe 'Rachel, you're stepping into an unknown, it's ok to be scared.' Yeah, I am both of those things to some degree, but I think that it is also a different type of fear. A fear that what if time goes by faster and I don't use it appropriately, I don't make the most out of it. There are so many things that I want to do, but doing them doesn't always happen. For example, I want my room to be packed right now, but instead I am typing this. Obviously, a small example in the scheme of life, but I am sure most people can relate to this in some way or another.

My time in WI both flew by and felt like a long time, another thing I don't quite understand but that's for another day. I learned a lot this past year and am so thankful for it. I met some amazing people and made lasting memories. When I look back on this year I am pleased, I'm not regretful. I think that this is the best way to leave a chapter of your life. There will probably always be more things that I could've done, but maybe the trick is just doing all you can and being satisfied. That's not very profound, and I'm not trying to be. I'm just trying to pack my room... and I'm satisfied with the work I've done, so now I think I'll go eat a cookie.

Until next time, enjoy the little things, find beauty in the simple, and always enjoy a good cookie.